Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Lazy weekend

It's only 4.00pm on Sunday but seems like I've been sitting here in the living hall for hours.... Time certainly crawls at this moment.

Rainy day... It's been raining non-stop since yesterday morning. The positive points are the air is fresh and the weather's just nice. Good time to just relax and do nothing. That's exactly what I've been doing... Doing nothing. Light newspaper and Facebook reading. Till I get so bored....and lazy...

The whole neighbourhood seems to come to a standstill except for the on-going passing by cars in front of the house. At least that keeps me company. Leia's soundly asleep. Since 1.30pm... Hubby woke up not long ago and he's out now. Maid - probably still finding things to do to keep her occupied. Pa-in-law is still resting nicely in his room....

What's there interesting and productive for me to do right now? Think about what to cook again? Oh... not again, though I must admit that I like to cook. I'm putting on weight again, that's why! Hmmmph!

Anywhere nice to go around Penang in such weather? It's weekend, come on! It shouldn't be turned into hibernating days every end of the week... Why am I not creative anymore when it comes to planning outdoor activities? Have I fallen into the trap of momhood? I shudder to think of being one like my grandmother used to be. No way... it's just not me.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

My counsellors...

I'm so glad that I had a chance to have a good, long discussion with hubby about my current state of mind and affairs yesterday evening. Everything become clearer again...

Who are your personal counsellor when you face roadblocks in your life? I have two. One is my hubby, of course and two is my best friend. They are the ones who seem to understand me most besides my parents, though both of them have a total opposite way of handling issues. One is a talker and the other is a listener. I'll let you guess who is who...

Being a sentimental person I am, I find talking and sharing my "sorrows" is a very effective way to de-stress. Ya, ya... poor two people mentioned above - having to bear with me like they have no other choice! Eventhough at times they couldn't help me much but it's very assuring and comforting to just have someone who cares to listen to me. It truly means a lot.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

The cursed endless list

I've been wanting to write these 2 days but... there were simply so many distractions that came along.

How have I been doing? How is Leia? What am I up to right now? How is Leia progressing? Hmmm... many things to share but....

Having 1001 things in mind to do is not exactly a healthy state of mind I should be in at all time. It's neither impressive to begin with. But why do I have this endless list in my thought all the time? Do you know why? I think I know the answer but I guess I have not settled with one great solution.

There are just 24 hours a day in our lives. Well, it rings truth that we can't possibly do everything that we want without prioritising them wisely. Am I setting my priorities right? If I do, why am I feeling so disillusioned? One part of me is insisting that I "slow down" in work related matter so that I can focus more on Leia.... and the other part of me is not allowing me to let go... Oh, I'm tired of pleasing both... the inner voices. Oh, what about the outer voices - the surrounding voices by the loved ones, friends...

Dear God, what about yours?